My Mind Right Now -Cal

I'm focused on one thing.
Just one. Freaking. Thing.

More like a concept.

The concept that what I want is out there.

Whatever it is.

And I can have it.

In theory, it is meant for me.

But reality can be a hard thing to grasp because concepts aren't reality.

And that can be hard when all your mind can handle right now is concepts.

I've entitled this concept:

theideathateverythingihaveeverthoughtiwantedisatmyfingertipsbutonlyexistsbecauseibelieveitexists

It's time for another glorious story from Cal.

(applause)

Yes yes, settle down. I recently discovered that if you lay perfectly still for about fifteen minutes your body will naturally fall asleep.

(really?)

Yes. And this was working incredibly well for me, for a while.

(what happened?)

One night, my thoughts took over. 

It was like I was living in my own mind.

For a little while, reality was mine.

I had everything I thought I wanted.

I could laugh at conversations, feel sadness, fear and frustration.

It all felt so real.

But it wasn't. 

With the tiniest twitch in my foot my mind was jolted back to my stagnant reality.

I was at a loss.

The thoughts I had weren't like a regular dream or a story that could be written. 

They were like memories.

Memories of happiness that I haven't attained.

This is why my mind has been so focused on a single concept.

I know happiness is out there for me.

I just don't have it yet.

The Feels -Tom

Well I haven't posted in a while. Cal just thinks I am too uncreative and has banned my posting abilities.

JK. He didn't. 

I just haven't had all that much to say. I do have the means to create fun web comics now, so maybe those will come in the future. And I did play a whole song all the way through on my guitar (with singing, might I add), so my goals are starting to get on a roll. But mostly college is really hard, and it's making it difficult to have free time.

Last Wednesday night I tried to pull an all-nighter to finish a book called Candide by Voltaire, and it is not a book that you should be trying to read at 5 am after you have been up for a good 20 hours or so. Any book I have to read for that class is not a book to read at 5 am after being up for hours on end. Frankly, it's just a bad idea to try to do an all-nighter and try to do anything productive at 5 am. Procrastination is not your friend. 

In short, I didn't finish it. At all.

And, I have totally procrastinated every important home work assignment that I possibly could have procrastinated on top of that. So college really sucks right now, because I am an idiot and thought "Eh, just be a hermit and fall in love with your bed instead of working hard to go where you want in life".  Beds are cool too, right? Who needs dreams?

Also, I am indeed going on an adventure come the summer to the land of Toronto. Cal has not deceived you. I am both terrified and elated to be able to spend a significant amount of time away from the land I have taken residence in for nearly 20 years. Where I am from, there isn't a whole lot of cultural diversity. Toronto on the other hand has nearly half of it's population made up of foreign born citizens and minorities. That will be a nice switcheroo.

Well, I just want to post this and maybe I will write more a little later.

Signing off for now,

-Tom

It is Late. -Cal

   It's is sleepy-bye-time.
                      Right now.
   But, nobody has posted (*cough*cough* TOM) recently so I am going to make a post.
        The Horchata pancakes were delicious by the way.

Well...

                                        They were alright.

I'm going to tell you all a story.

   Recently, my goals have not been going well.

      I have made no effort to practice piano (though I have been working on my bass guitar),

         I haven't learned Arabic (though I spent a Saturday with an Egyptian chemist),

            And I haven't been writing in my other blog all that much (but I've planned some cool stuff).

But-

   I have been preparing for a journey I will embark on soon.

      A journey that will change who I am.

         A journey that will changes those I meet.

This is journey that Tom is also preparing for.

      Her journey...

            Lies in the heart of the great city

Of Toronto.

      I do not know where my journey will lead me, but it is a journey that will change the hearts of many, and    save the souls of many more.

And I must prepare for this journey so that I don't fail my people and my purpose.

And that's my "I suck at completing my goals" excuse.

Horchata Pancakes -Cal

Yes. That's a real thing.
I'm making them tomorrow.      Hopefully.
This Friday we are having a culture day in my Spanish class, and we're assigned to make party foods. My group and I have not discussed what we will be making, but if I have my way, we will be eating

Horchata Pancakes.

You see, they're like normal pancakes... 

But there's horchata in them.                                                           

And that's pretty cool.                         

In other news, I'm way better at making my posts creatively designed than Tom.

Also one of the girls in my Spanish group is crushing on me super hard. That's weird.